30 Days of Kink: Day 25

Posted on 15th February 2013 in 30 Days of Kink

How open are you about your kinks?

This may seem odd given that I blog sort-of-anonymously but I’m actually pretty open. I don’t go round yelling it from the rooftops but my friends know I’m kinky and if you ask about it I’ll tell you. I tweet some kinky things from my non-kink account on occasion, and not just by accident!

So all in all I’m pretty open about them, but I’d rather my family didn’t see me naked!

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30 Days of Kink: Day 26

Posted on 26th March 2012 in 30 Days of Kink

What’s your opinion on online BDSM play?

I have a love/hate relationship with online play; I love the people it gives me chance to play with and the things I learn through playing with them, but I hate the lack of sensation, in that my (albeit mild) masochism struggles to be sated. I find that after a while I am longing for a meet up and to feel their hands on me, to live out in reality what we have discussed.

I love being able to run my hands over people and feel their hands on me. I love the feel of a strong hand on my neck as a cock forces its way into me. I love to feel.

For me online is no replacement for the real thing and it could never be the relationship I have with my soul mate, but it does fill a hole (so to speak) in my life when I can’t express my sexuality ‘in real life.’

 

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30 Days of Kink: Day 30

Posted on 13th March 2012 in 30 Days of Kink, Non Kink

Whatever BDSM/kink related thing you want to write about.

 On not being X/Y/Z enough

I go through phases of kink. I’m kinky all the time, but there are times, a lot of times, where I don’t feel kinky enough. There’s so many ‘hardcore’ kinksters out there and I find it impossible to not compare myself with them: they don’t mind doing this, they love that, they do all these things I can’t…it goes on.

So now is one of those times where I find myself pondering if I should just drop out of kink for good and accept that I’m never going to be a good submissive because of my limitations and fears that I shan’t go into here, well, not right now anyway. Suffice to say they are unchangeable.

I don’t want to, when I don’t feel like this I love kink and when I’m enjoying it with someone special it’s the best thing ever, but right now I have no one special (in a LTR sense) and am beating myself up about all my failings and wondering if it’s worth it. Afterall, it’s supposed to be fun, not a lesson in all the things you suck at/can’t do.

The 2 Dom’s I’m currently playing with are understanding, but I still feel like I’m letting them down all the time and I hate that, but I can’t just magically change who I am and how I am.

*sighs*

I shall now stop rambling and promise a naughty post next time.

http://www.insatiabledesire.com/2010/08/09/thirty-days-of-kink/

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30 Days of Kink: Day 29

Posted on 6th March 2012 in 30 Days of Kink

Do you have a BDSM title (e.g. mistress, master, slut, pig, whore, princess, goddess, ma’am, sir)?  What is your opinion of the use of titles in general?

In general my title of choice is “girl,” interspersed with “whore,” “dirty slut,” and suchlike. I’m more of a little than a submissive; I like to be loved as well as used. I like to mean something to the person I’m playing with and have a Daddy to look after me, especially in long term relationships.

I like the use of titles, for me they help to establish the boundaries and rules, it’s a sign that I must remember my place and stay there. It also reminds me how much I love my place!

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30 Days of Kink: Day 7

Posted on 6th March 2012 in 30 Days of Kink

What’s your favourite toy?

The Bcurious from Bswish.

I’m assuming you want more than that…

What’s to say, it’s a vibrator, but it’s gorgeously shaped and beautiful and it has loads of settings and is packaged amazingly and is just perfect! And it gives me awesome orgasms.

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30 Days of Kink: Day 6

Posted on 16th January 2011 in 30 Days of Kink

Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.

*ahem* I will admit to not being entirely comfortable sharing that! So I’ll give you the closest: Santa! Although it seems it’s not as weird as it may appear!

Maybe I’m just not that weird or interesting! I like fairly generic stuff: hand on the throat while being fucked, being thrown about, anal. I’m just a vanilla kinkster really!

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30 Days of Kink: Day 5

Posted on 7th January 2011 in 30 Days of Kink, Erotica

I’m still trekking through the 30 days of kink! Today’s question is:

Day 5: What was your first kinky sexual experience?  If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.

I think I probably covered this in my last post so I’m trying to think of something new! So I’m going to share another childhood fantasy of mine instead!

As you drive up to the house you see a girl either side of the door, each in a cage suspended from the roof. Both girls are naked and just out of reach, they are purely decorative and not for touching.
Walking through the front doors you are greeted by a man in a suit, he is polite but immediately asks what you are looking for, if you have any specific requirements. You tell him that you are just looking, seeing what is available, and don’t intend to purchase today. He nods and shows you through. This is your first time in one of these places and you are initially shocked by what you see; one long corridor with windows all the way down on both sides. The windows are floor to ceiling and allow for a view of the girls behind them. The shock quickly subsides as you realise that this is how it should be; girls there for your pleasure, toys to do with as you please.

Each room is stone, more a dungeon than a room. Some contain toys that they have been ordered to play with, some more than one girl, some are tied down having orgasms ripped from them by machines while they scream and cry for it to stop. You see a girl you like the look of, she is tied to the wall with a hitachi pressed against her cunt, she is screaming, shaking and crying. You point at her, “stop it,” you say. The vibrations cease and she looks at you, her eyes conveying their thanks. “Remind me to try her on my next visit,” you say almost thinking out loud, “carry on.” The hitachi turns back on and you see her throw her head back as it tears yet more screams from her throat. “Definitely make sure I try that one,” you murmer.

You wander down the corridor taking in the different sights. Noting down which girls take your fancy, taunting some of them, demanding they display themselves or dance for you. You take in how they move, how they look, how they sound, how well they suffer. This really is the life. You tell them as you leave when you will be returning and which girls you want to see and as you drive off you cannot wait for your next visit.

(Obviously in my fantasies I was one of the girls but it’s hard to write it from that POV!)

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30 Days of Kink: Day 4

Posted on 29th December 2010 in 30 Days of Kink

Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?

I wouldn’t say they hint at it so much as yell it from the rooftops! I had lots of Barbies and they were all sex slaves to Aladdin (the one Ken doll I had), several of them remained naked at all times, there was lots of orgies, lesbian sex and “rape.” On several occasions Jasmine disobeyed and was beaten, tied up naked, gang raped and generally punished.

When I got a baby born for Christmas one year rather than using the accessories for the doll I used them for me, I kept a potty in my bedroom and imagined groups of men watching me pee in it, I used the bottle to give myself mini enemas (though I didn’t know that’s what they were).

In primary school I had a friend who, in hindsight, was my Domme. We spent lots of time together playing sexually. One time I remember vividly I was naked and lying down on my bedroom floor and she wrote on me in lipstick (I don’t recall what) and inserted pencils, pens and various other objects into me.
Another time we were at her house playing and her little brother came in and she shut me in her wardrobe, totally naked.

I’ve already written about one of my fantasies during childhood, that was every time I had a shower. I had others which I will write about in the future.

So yea, I was way past hinting!

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30 Days of Kink: Day 3

Posted on 28th December 2010 in 30 Days of Kink

How did you discover you were kinky?

I must have been in my mid teens and I can’t really remember a specific moment or even but I think it was general conversation with my friends that made me realise that all the fantasies I’d been having weren’t “normal” and how I imagined sex to be wasn’t what everyone else imagined. I think one of the main things that made me realise was when I was talking to my best friend about love and marriage and she was saying how she pictured her first time, on her wedding day, bed covered in rose petals, lights off, gentle love making. I had never in my life before that even considered that, I always pictured my first time being thrown to the bed, handcuffed, spanked and fucked hard.

So yea, I think it was mostly a comparison with friends thing!

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30 Days of Kink: Day 2

Posted on 28th December 2010 in 30 Days of Kink

List your kinks

My god! Where to start!

Power exchange certainly. I automatically surrender power in the bedroom so that’s probably the most “important” if there’s levels of importance! I’m really into humiliation too, I’m easily humiliated and shy which makes it fairly easy but I do enjoy it very much! They’re probably the “main” ones.

Hmmm. I love anal, I’m quite an ass slut to be honest. I love being spanked. I’m turning into a bit of a pain slut too. The idea of being used by multiple people and whored out turns me on, I have yet to see if the reality does too though.

That is by no means a good list but I don’t think I could write a full list, it would constantly need updating!

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